this year i make the wishes in a different way, writing what doesn’t i ever said.
I think it was devastating remain widow at 40 years, and be manage alone a son twenties who had pretended to be more intelligent and cunning of you.
I can only imagine that responsibility and fears ti is collapsed on you, and above all, how much pain you have tried to see that the man that you stood beside from twenty years was quickly slipping toward death.
I know you have done your best and that we were really difficult moments, both emotionally and economically, but you got to the great.
Mum, I know that you are there always has been and you never let out, and I have to tell you that I was wrong not to tell you for too long.
You know who and how I am and you just glance to understand me, without that you should say nothing.
You know well how, at times, is really difficult to have to do with me because you know my dark areas better than anyone else saw that you lived in the first person the causes of many of them.
A few years ago you risked seriously leave forever without that i could say goodbye one last time.
I had just taken to walk after the months of rehabilitation from the accident, and that night I drove for 600 km hoping with all my heart that you can speak once again.
It was very hard, but you did it.
When was born Lorenzo you know well how it was that the drama have been the months of intensive care unit, and how many signs I have caused inside.
But even then, there you have always been and you have never allowed that i give up, struggling with us and enjoying all that he is becoming (also thanks to you…)
How many pain you just saw each time i was on the ground and then as today, you are so close to me and push me up to go forward .
Do you know how the loss of my father and all the events that took place in the years I have marked and rendered ever more angular, but the time has come to trying to make peace with my demons,.
I owe it to you and to my son, because I realized how important it is that i will done, and for the first time by the many “yes” which I told you in time, I started to do it for real.
I always say that I have to laugh more why change my aura when I : believe you have reason and even if we put a little to get there, I too need and desire not to give it a try.
I would like to see you happy and peaceful but because it happens i must be so I too, then I have no other alternatives that raise the head and go to seek the sun for could squirm bring a little.
Best Wishes Mom and thanks for everything.
(P.S. The Macaron de Ladurèe i’ll carry you between a little…)
the song cannot be : Here Comes The Sun – Beatles (Abbey Road – 1969)
See you soon